Today was a day well spent. I bought a beautiful journal from one of the vendors that is right outside my building and I have been writing away. Sometimes I am afraid that my mind and heart might explode with how many thoughts and feelings they contain at times, luckily this journal is small enough to bring with me everywhere. I have also begun scrapbooking my trip, I have saved receipts, entrance tickets, business cards, plane tickets, napkins, and anything else that will remind me of places I have been. I am very happy to have some kind of creative outlet, it keeps my mind at bay. The hardest part about being away is making myself less available. It sounds strange but I had it in my head that I would be busy, busy, busy 24/7 but the life style here is not as fast-pace like it is at home, so I have lot of time to enjoy the city, wander, be lost but also be available to those I miss the most. I am on this journey to learn how to be more selfish and do things that are best for me, not others and that is a challenge that I am looking forward to someday accomplishing. By no means do I wish I was anywhere but here, I love it here and I am happy to spend four months of my life here and I just have to remind myself that my life will be there when I get home. I am SO thankful for those who have gone out of their way to talk to me and make me feel appreciated/missed/thought of/loved etc. Being away also opens your eyes to those who really matter and deserve a piece of your heart. Being here is going to give me a lot of time to reevaluate my life, where I want to be, who I want to be and what I want to do. Clearly no matter where I go, I cannot run away from how thoughts and how deep they run. My life has been one exciting adventure and I am thankful for every memory and experience. I love the happy moments just as much as the sad ones because they all have taught me an important lesson. People matter to me more than anything and I am blessed to have amazing people in my life, so being here is hard because all I want to do is tell each and every one of you how much I love you and care about you. However, I shall refrain simply because I would never leave my room because there are too many of you and I would like to take in the Tuscan air and landscape while I can. If it isn't obvious yet, Europe only added fuel to the already burning romantic inside of me. Tonight I walked to my favorite place, Piazza Michelangelo and as I watched the city come to life through every street lamp, I couldn't help but fall more in love with where I am but it is a bummer than you all couldn't be there to see and feel the magic yourselves. Standing there made my worries melt away and got me excited for school to begin, I need classes to add another level to this experience and I look forward to meeting new people.
Aside from the Piazza, Alex, Lainey, Jessi and I (alex my roommate and the other two girls go to chapman but they are sophomores) had coffee at this caffe by the Ponte Vecchio and Alex ordered a cioccolato calda (hot chocolate) and it was literally melted chocolate... I will definitely be going back there.
Keep sending the support and I will keep sending my updates :]
ciao ciao.
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